Long time no post…
I honestly do not even know where to begin. Okay first things first, I’ve been dealing with the biggest case of self-doubt for the past 6 months… okay, maybe longer. You cannot believe the rate of my disbelief in my own abilities.
I had so many excuses to give myself for not continuing this and giving up, some of which are: I couldn’t cope with blog and school work,I was busy with one thing or the other which in actual fact was true but I could have done both if I really was determined. My major reason as I’ve stated earlier was my lack of faith in myself. Because even if those reasons did affect me now and then, they are all gone now so I have no excuse. I’m FINALLY done with school. Yes, I had to emphasize on the “finally”. If you went to the kind of university I did, you’d understand. It was just stress!
So, right now I’m really not doing anything, although I have a professional exam to write in October *cries in exam* and I have classes which sadly holds in the same school. But all things are possible through Christ right?
Enough of the blabbing, I just want to tell you guys how I dealt with and overcame the devil termed “Self Doubt”.
Basically I just woke up one morning and said “not today satan!” I stopped listening to the voice inside my head telling me ” you can’t” and started listening to the voice or voices outside telling saying I CAN. I believe from experience that, when going through something like this, you need to hear from the people closest to you that you can. My best-friend eventually got tired of telling me I could do it. Let me not even go on about my Boyfriend (Yes, I have one now! and I can use that word. Remember when I was ranting about being single ? Lol. see HERE) who actually forced me to. So most of all, surround yourself with people who will support and encourage you no matter what.
Another thing that really helped me is this, I started looking up people (female and male) around my age or even younger doing what I was in doubt about. and I just kept telling myself if she can do it, if he can do it, then why can’t I do it? One of the major issues I was having was comparing myself to others, and I realized the more I did that the less faith I had in myself. The only person you should ever compare yourself to is YOU. And when I say this, I mean compare where you are now, to where you want to be or where you are now, to where you were yesterday or where you used to be. There’s absolutely nothing special about any other person doing what you want to do asides the fact that they are DOING IT! Plus what’s the worse that could happen really?
The final and major way I overcame self-doubt is through the grace of God. I know it might sound cliché, but there were so many times I’d log on my account with the intention of deleting it and closing this chapter of my life and I believe it was God who saw me through really because “hmmn”, even as I write this, its his grace really. If someone would have told me I’d start this again I would have laughed in his/her face.
Feel free to comment if you’ve had a similar experience or you just have anything to add. I’d love to hear from you.
I hope you have a wonderful day.